Her Silence Swabrah Nabuuma   © Copyright 2025 by Swabrah Nabuuma

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It was the kind of silence that pressed against her chest, thick and heavy, the kind that made even her heartbeat sound too loud. The whole village of Namatala seemed to hold its breath that night, waiting for something — or someone — to speak first. But no one did.

Aisha sat on the verandah, her knees pulled close to her chest, the kerosene lamp beside her trembling slightly with the night breeze. The air smelled of wet earth; rain had fallen earlier, leaving puddles that mirrored the moonlight like silver scars on the road. From a distance, she could hear the croaking of frogs and the occasional cry of a night bird — sounds that made the silence feel even deeper.

She had not spoken a word in three days. Not since the morning she saw the men in green uniforms walk away from her father’s field, leaving behind a trail of smoke and a silence that swallowed everything else.

Before that day, her home had always been full of noise. Her mother’s soft singing while pounding millet, her father’s laughter as he called out to the neighbours, and her younger brother Musa’s endless questions that filled every corner of the house. But after that morning, all of it was gone. Only silence remained, sitting like an unwelcome guest who refused to leave.

People in the village whispered things — about rebels, about soldiers, about mistakes. They said Aisha’s father had spoken too loudly at the wrong place, said the wrong truth in front of the wrong men. But Aisha didn’t want to hear it. Every time someone tried to talk to her, she turned away. Words had betrayed her father; silence felt safer.

On the fourth day, her grandmother came. She was a small woman with kind eyes and a voice like old paper — fragile, but full of wisdom. She sat beside Aisha on the verandah and didn’t speak either. For a long time, they just listened to the night breathe. Then, softly, the old woman said, “You cannot live with silence forever, my child. It eats more than noise ever can.”

Aisha didn’t reply. She watched the glow of the lamp fade as the oil thinned. The flame flickered like a heartbeat that didn’t know whether to continue or stop.

Later that night, as sleep tugged at her eyes, Aisha dreamed of her father’s voice calm, deep, and warm. He was standing in the field again, waving at her like he used to when she came home from school. But when she tried to run to him, her legs wouldn’t move. Her throat burned with words she couldn’t say.

She woke up with tears on her cheeks and the sound of a rooster somewhere far away announcing morning.

The days stretched on. The silence became routine a language of its own. Neighbours stopped trying to talk to her. Even Musa, who was too young to understand why his sister no longer answered him, had grown quiet. Their mother spent her time staring out the window, her face expressionless, her eyes lost in memories that no one dared disturb.

Then one afternoon, something shifted. A stranger came to the village a teacher, sent to start a small school for children who had lost months of learning because of the conflict. His name was Mr. Ouma. He was young, his face full of energy, his smile too bright for a place that had forgotten how to smile.

He went house to house, introducing himself, asking if children could come to his class. When he reached Aisha’s home, she sat on the floor, pretending to be busy with something invisible. Her mother spoke to him politely but without enthusiasm.

“Aisha used to love reading,” her mother said, her voice soft and distant. “But now she… doesn’t talk much.”

Mr. Ouma turned to her and crouched down so their eyes met. “You don’t have to talk,” he said gently. “Just come and listen. Sometimes listening is the beginning of healing.”

That evening, Aisha lay awake thinking about those words. Listening. Healing. Could silence really heal? She wasn’t sure. But something about the way he said it — like he understood — made her want to try.

The next morning, she followed the sound of laughter and chalk dust to the small open shelter that served as a classroom. Children sat on wooden benches, scribbling on slates, their voices carrying in the wind. Mr. Ouma saw her and smiled without saying a word. He just gestured to an empty seat.

Aisha sat. For the first time in weeks, she listened to words that didn’t hurt, to laughter that didn’t sting. She listened to the rhythm of learning, the melody of voices rising and falling like waves.

Days turned into weeks. She still didn’t speak, but her silence began to change. It no longer felt heavy; it began to feel full — full of thoughts, full of hope, full of small things that didn’t need words to be understood.

Then one day, during a lesson about stories, Mr. Ouma asked the class to write something about courage. Most of the children began writing right away. Aisha hesitated. Her pencil hovered above the paper, trembling. She thought of her father, of her mother, of her grandmother’s voice saying silence eats more than noise ever can. And slowly, she began to write.

When she finished, she didn’t realize that tears had wet the corner of the page. Mr. Ouma came by, glanced at her work, and read the first line out loud “Courage is when you speak, even when silence feels safer.”

The class went quiet. Everyone turned to her, but for once, she didn’t feel afraid. Her hands stopped shaking. The silence in her heart the one that had buried her voice began to break apart, like dry earth after the rain.

That afternoon, as she walked home, the wind carried the scent of blossoms from the hills. The world still felt quiet, but no longer empty. She realized that silence wasn’t her enemy; it was just waiting for her to speak through it.

And when she finally whispered, “Papa,” into the wind, it didn’t hurt anymore. It felt like peace. And as the wind carried her whisper through the quiet night, Aisha realized that silence had never been her prison — it had been her teacher