This
is
a true account of my experience years ago
when I was given the key to my grandmother’s attic. I set about
exploring her attic, curious about my family. I was not disappointed
for her attic was a treasure trove waiting to be explored.
I
approached the
door leading into my grandmother’s attic. Using her skeleton
key, I turned the lock; opened the door; and stepped inside, the
floor creaking beneath my feet. I fumbled my way across the dimly-lit
attic toward a nearby dormer window and wiped the grime from it,
letting the morning light stream in.
I glanced around the
room; cobwebs hung off the walls, their owners nowhere to be seen;
and dust lay over every surface like dirty snow. Stacked all around
me was a maze of broken furniture; forgotten toys and old board
games; rolled up rugs, dirty paintings; sealed boxes; and idle
suitcases—the abandoned odds and ends that had once been used
and a part of the everyday life of the people who’d lived in
the house below. But those people were dead and forgotten, like the
relics they’d left behind. Even so, I was curious about them.
I sat down on the
floor; and over the course of several hours, I rummaged through the
boxes’ contents touching the stuff previously used by the
people I’d never known and peeking into their world. I lifted
off the lid of an antique trinket box unveiling a collection of
vintage lace dollies, handwritten recipe cards, newspaper clippings,
and some old stamps and letters postmarked from Germany.
I removed the lid
from a crumbling, dilapidated shoebox and uncovered a small, red
leather-bound journal, its original stitching barely holding it
together. The thin volume smelt faintly of lavender with an
overlying hint of mustiness; and although it was cracked and dried,
it felt soft and delicate as I ran my fingers over its timeworn
bindings. A dainty scrawl on the title page divulged that the
journal once belonged to Anna Mettner. But who was Anna
Mettner? Wanting to learn more about her, I turned through
her journal’s
flimsy pages; they were soft, pink and powdery under my fingers, like
the papier-poudre my grandmother used to buy in booklets for taking
the shine off her nose. But the faded scribbles and words on the
pages made it almost impossible to decipher many details.
I laid the journal
aside and scoured through another box where I found the family Bible;
generations of birth and death certificates; a withered-looking
scrapbook; and an envelope filled with an assortment of tattered
black and white photos, many covered with dust and age. I thumbed
through the fragile photographs, attracted to the picture of a
dapper-looking, elderly gentleman. My eyes met his, and immediately
our connection felt deep and enigmatic. I surveyed his serene but
proud face.
His face was mapped
with wrinkles; his forehead deeply grooved; his laugh lines too
numerous to count; and his eyes—strong as boulders—were
filled with kindness. I recognized those features, for they were the
same ones I saw on my father’s face. But who was he, the
stranger in the box? I turned over the photograph hoping his
name had been scribbled on the back. But the inscription on the back
was washed out, and the only word I could clearly make out was
Grandpa. But Grandpa who? I
immersed myself in the
scrapbook’s brittle pages searching for answers. I scrutinized
the journaling inscribed on each page and gently lifted each picture
from its corner tabs, reading what was written on the back. By late
afternoon, a story emerged about the man known as Grandpa.
Grandpa was
Wilhelm Itchen, born outside Dorn, Germany, where he lived with his
parents—poor struggling farmers. As Wilhelm matured, he grew
weary of the toil and strife. So, he traveled to Bremen and joined
the Merchant Marines hoping to find a better life on the high seas. By
happenstance during one of his tours, his ship anchored in the
Gulf of Mexico, just outside Galveston Bay. While standing watch on
the main deck, the young sailor heard faint music and laughter coming
from just beyond the shoreline. He grabbed his binoculars, focusing
them on a huge rotating wheel that lit up the night sky with all
sorts of bright colors. He watched it circle round n’ round;
and the rhythmic rat-tat-rat-tuh of the Ferris wheel’s
machinery was like a siren’s irresistible song luring him
ashore.
Wilhelm threw down
his binoculars; removed his shoes; ran to the edge of the ship; and
jumped into the cold, murky water—risking life and limb and
forsaking his native country. He swam toward the shore with only his
faith and the distant city lights to guide him. His muscles cramped,
and he feared he’d die before making it ashore. But Wilhelm
reached the shore where he fell to his knees and hailed, “Danke,
Gott! Jetz bin ich ein Amerikaner!” He passed out from
exhaustion, and the next morning a young couple discovered him—weak
and emaciated with nothing but the wet clothes on his back. They
took Wilhelm into their home, caring for him until he regained his
strength. He left Galveston and migrated throughout Texas, often
working 12-hour days in cotton fields.
Just outside New
Braunfels, Wilhelm met Anna Mettner, a woman 12 years his junior, and
instantly fell in love with her.
“Love,”he wrote in a letter to her, “you are the sky and the
clouds; you are the gentle river and the birds that sing. You are
laughter and hope. You are the one I love, and the one I want to
share my life with. I knew that the moment we met. I could never
wish to go back to even a day before that. You are the greatest
treasure of my life. You are the one, the only one.”
Within weeks of
their first encounter, Wilhelm and Anna married. During the course
of their marriage, the couple had eight children—all born on US
soil—sealing their fate and the fortune of generations to
follow as citizens of this country. After World War I, Wilhelm moved
his family to Dallas, Texas, where he worked as a railroad conductor;
obtained his citizenship; and Americanized his name changing it to
William Etgen. But in 1912, his beloved Anna unexpectedly passed
away leaving him to raise their children on his own.
A photograph taken
at Anna’s funeral depicts a devastated Wilhelm standing beside
her casket draped in forget-me-nots—his eyes glazed over,
filled with the shear nothingness that grief had brought to his soul.
The epitaph engraved on her headstone touches me the most. It
succinctly expresses his pain in letting his dear Anna go while
revealing his faith, strength, and courage. The inscription reads,
“It was hard indeed to part with thee. But Christ’s
strong arm supported me.” Grandpa never remarries;
and
in 1939, some twenty-seven years later, he joins his beloved Anna
after having lived the life many immigrants dream of having.
A wave of tiredness
washes over my, and my eyes flicker to a halt. I study the
photograph of the dapper-looking, elderly gentleman—the
stranger in the box. The map of wrinkles on his face tell the tale
of his incredibly fearless journey as he jumped ship, forsaking his
homeland just for the chance of a better life in America. His laugh
lines tell the tale of his joy in becoming an American citizen; in
seeing his children and grandchildren born in America; and in
experiencing their laughter, warm smiles, and affection. The deep
grooves on his forehead tell the tale of his tenacity and resolve in
facing life’s trials, tribulations, and tragedies.
I close the
scrapbook and glance out the dormer window; dusk has come sooner than
expected. The sun is slowly dipping behind the horizon, the last of
the sun’s rays cosseted behind a dove gray cloud tinged with a
subtle hint of purple. The neighborhood outside looks like the old
photograph in my hand, everything thing a shade of gray.
I stare into the
photograph; Grandpa’s gaze, undimmed by time, meets
mine. I feel his love for me and sense a plaited link exists between
us—one that goes beyond time, our bloodline, and our shared
genealogy. As the light inside the attic begins to fade, I close my
eyes, quietly thanking my great grandfather for my own existence; and
I’m comforted knowing that he silently dwells in the attic of
my soul giving me strength and an indelible, timeless connection to
my ancestors and my past.