Oma
She
had found a bit of woven, checkered cloth and fashioned it into a
diaper for her newborn son. She scrounged some scraps of fabric,
thread and stitched a flowered gown and an embroidered cap. With
tenderness she dressed him and swaddled him in a worn woolen blanket
to keep away the morning chill. She kissed his cheek one last time
before laying him down on Brabant Street in Ghent in the early dawn
on May 26, 1815.
Cecile
and Rosalie were returning to the common house near the port as they
did every morning, holding hands, kindred spirits who had endured a
night of brutality some men were inclined to heap upon those thought
unworthy of any tenderness or care. Cecile lifted the swaddled infant
from the street and held him close, her maternal feelings intact,
untouched by the cruelty that visited her harsh life.
Oma,
hiding in a nearby doorway to make sure no stray beast found him
first, wept as the women walked away with her baby. Though they did
not know the infant’s mother, this was a scene from a familiar
play. Often they were compelled to perform the same role in a world
that did not value them as though they were incapable of giving love
and unworthy of receiving it. This early Spring morning they were no
lowly Public Ledgers. They were survivors, women helping each other,
sharing a deep understanding known only to them.
Oma
loved her baby. She promised herself someday she would find him,
identify him by the clothing she had made and they would be together
henceforth. She never did. She couldn’t. She lived a different
life.
Cecile
and Rosalie took the baby to the police station.
I
have a copy of the entry into the police ledger on that day written
in the stunted, fact-based style that persists in police reports to
this day.
“
Upon
examining the child we found it to be of the male sex and appeared to
be ten to twelve days old. No marks nor notes were found on
him.”
Officer
Francois Verheyghem drew up and signed a declaration for the court.
With an “x” Cecile swore to the truth as she had done
before for other mothers with impossible lives.
In
the orphanage other women, nuns from the Franciscan Order, would keep
the infant and rear him just as Oma knew they would when she could
not. Jan-Baptiste was the rescued baby, the beloved son of my dearest
great, great, great grandmother, Oma.
Auntie
“Wie
ist dein Namen!”
In
a small voice, the trembling eight year old girl standing next to my
strong, stoic Auntie, whispered, “Berthe.”
Auntie
was the Mother Superior of the orphanage in Ghent. Four nights before
the terrified Jewish girl stood outside the convent doors delivered
by the Belgian underground during the Occupation when the Gestapo was
rounding up the Belgian Jews for extermination.
Mother
Superior met each child in secret. To minimize potential exposure
that could compromise the mission, only she and a few priests knew of
the plan to hide the children within the orphanage.
“
Wat
is je naam, liefje?” Mother
Superior asked.
“
Berthe”
“
Good.
Keep your name. It sounds Flemish.” The plan was in play.
Eventually
the Gestapo caught on. Christian institutions were hiding Jewish
children. The brutes arrived at the Convent door and barged in
seeking the Jüdische
Kinder hidden
among the Christian orphans. “Wie
ist dein Namen!” Those
with Hebrew names would be lost, most forever. This time Berthe was
passed over.
In
May of 1940 her peaceful life was transformed. Evil had come for her
babies. Auntie fought the war in the moment as she could. Though she
could not save all, she saved many. She vanished in 1942.
I
have two photos of my auntie from before the war. One she is standing
next to the children all lined up by height in descending order. She
is protective. No longer would they be alone or hungry. He would be
pleased at how she had delivered His message of love.
Elise.
Gramma
She
prepared a plate of hot food, left-overs from the night before, pork
roast Flemish style with boiled potatoes. She did not skimp on the
Boetje’s coarse-ground mustard she was pleased to have found in
the American market. She took the plate to the hungry man waiting in
the enclosed back porch. It was a scene in the 1930s they both
understood. He had recognized the “X” on the alley gate
behind her humble home with the backyard vegetable garden and the
marigold border along the sidewalk leading to the back door. Others
before him signaled her generosity and compassion. They knew a
stranger, a man alone, could frighten a small, unassuming woman so
they waited politely on the porch, ate their meal in silence and
gratitude before departing. She turned no one away. They were the
least of His.
When
he was a grown man my cousin, Corky, awoke to an illuminated Cross
hovering over him. He told me God had sent it to him to comfort his
broken heart. No woman would ever love him, he said. His mother had
abandoned him long ago. In infancy he lived with his father in a
filthy, basement apartment on the North side of Chicago. One day
Gramma insisted on checking the welfare of her grandson over the
protests of his drunk father. She found the baby lying on a maggot
infested mattress. Unheeded cries left him in hopeless silence. She
took him home with her. Though the balm of her love could not heal
his primary wound, he found happiness in breeding canaries,
delighting in their loving families, the mating, egg laying, warming
hatchlings, feeding and nurturing until chicks were mature enough to
take flight. He loved their beautiful songs. He lived with Gramma
until she died.
I
have one photo of them in their backyard garden. They are both
smiling. Corky’s hands are shoved into his pockets in a perfect
expression of teenage angst standing close to the woman who loved him
until the end.
Marie
All
of my life these women have been with me, whispering to me,
encouraging me, guiding me in times of uncertainty.
In
1995 Oma was there in the abandoned building near Jeffer’s
Gardens where I found Carol and her baby boy. She was in the throes
of addiction, when she handed him to me. I saw her maternal love, her
courage and her grief. She trusted I would deliver him to someone who
could care for him when she could not. On his behalf, I filed a
petition with the court and swore to the truth with my
signature.
Auntie
appeared one afternoon in 1980 at Cedar Park Junior High when my
foster son, a child refugee from Vietnam, hid behind me in fear as
cruel classmates yelled at him “Gook! Go home!” I
told him he was perfect, he was mine and I loved him. In broken
English I heard, “I ‘low’ you, ma.”
Just
a couple weeks ago Gramma was with me. I was standing outside the
Astoria Senior Center perusing the donation of fresh produce meant
for members only. A homeless man arrived. He took an apple. In that
moment his eyes caught mine. He wondered if I would snitch. I spoke
Gramma’s words as she handed a hungry stranger his midday meal.
“Make sure you take enough for later.”
Martha Ellen is a retired social worker living
on the Oregon coast. Poems and prose published in various journals
and online forums. No published manuscripts, collections or
books. She writes to process the events of her life.