Answers Of Angels   Gracie and Eddie  Harmon   © Copyright 2003 by Gracie and Eddie Harmon

            It was the month of August the sniper was on the lose he had already shot seven people, chat rooms were  full of people
talking and concerned about where he would be next, I go into chat room news august the fifthteenth  at nine forty five by the name hope angel eyes, when all of a sudden I see this person going by the name of Sunday rain    holler at me and says " hey angel are you ready to fly because I know you have the wings" I took it as a smart remark, a few min.s later this guy instant messages me and wants to talk, now I am going threw a bad marriage at the  time and I know if my husband sees me talking to a guy I know he will be mad so I block him off, and ignore him, days go by when every time I get on I have this guy hollering at me but the words he would say was getting to were I could know longer ignore him so I start chatting back with him, at this time in my life I needed someone  just to talk to or more like just be a friend that would stand by me threw my problems I was having in this marriage I was in.
     So days go on and every time I would get on the Internet me and this guy would talk I started opening up to him of what I was going threw at home and to me doing that with any one was strange because I wanted to keep it all bundled up inside me, but this man gave me answers to all my problems and it felt good to have someone there that could give me answers to were I needed them, seems like I was growing more closer to him by just the words that he was sending me, I seen that this man had a good heart and so caring he was, at this point neither of us had seen pictures of each other he lived in Florida and I lived in Harlan County, so I decided I would send him a picture of me now at this time I had been sneaking and talking to this man  at least two weeks but I felt so opened to him and I was, here I am  getting a picture of me ready to send him I push the button send, I am setting in the chair thinking  what am I doing  sending a picture of my self to a man that I don't really even know, he receives the picture in his mail box opens it up and the replies back at me I have butterflies in my stomach of what he thought about me, and his reply back at me was, " you look like a angel" just all the words this man said to me was like it was meant to be for us to meet the way we did, Everyday was getting more and more interesting  the words we spoke to each other were reaching our hearts and we were helping each other, but for me he was really showing me that there  was more to life than staying home in a closed up room and having a husband that just didn't care, in a months time we were getting really close sharing our thoughts with each other laughing and showing love, we both seen what was happening we were falling in love with  each other but I didn't want to believe it I was scared of the word love from the marriage I was in, and he taught me not to be scared that all men weren't that way he really started showing me love and I felt it even though we were so many miles apart  it felt like he was there in the same room with me telling me about his life, about his daughter and his grand children, and before long here I am calling him, I would catch my husband
gone and he would buy me calling cards to call him, and by the first month was over with I had talked to his mother, brother,
daughter, and his granddaughter., I was getting so close to him a day went by that I didn't call him and I was feeling so down,
     Starting the second month of us talking we are getting more and more involved in each other were telling each other everything like we had new each other a life time, he was helping me with the way I felt about my self, I was taking what my husband was doing to me and my son and keeping all that in me and by the time September is here I notice  that this man was helping me more than just one way, he had guided me out of a way that I had built up in my self by the way of feeling  inter heart a special way chosen by him by saying you don't have to use just your heart use what's in side your heart that's were your true feelings come from, and he was bringing this trueness out of me that I didn't even know I had, he came to teach me the new way of living without all the pain that I had put on my self because of someone else I rather not even talk about, he always told me there was always a way out, but I needed to find it with in my self and maybe  he was that angel on my shoulder  teaching me the way, showing me the way, the right way, once he taught me I could take away the hurt any time I wanted to, all I had to do was go back threw the words that he had spoken to me and seemed like all the hurt would go away, the second month was almost over with and he was always in the back ground when ever I needed him,, when one night I tried to get him into my home town chat which he new nothing
of, trying to direct him into the room turned out to be fun he couldn't find it, but after all it turned out to be fun, so we both
decided to talk by instant massager because it was much easer, in the last of the second month I decided to tell my niece about
him so I did and with her she thought it was great, she even got to the point were when I would call him she would have to talk as well, she seen nothing wrong with me talking to him, she seen that he was opening me up to where  I was feeling better about my self and my life, each night we would talk on the internet till late in the morning and times my husband would walk in the room I would push x to let him know that my husband was in the room not to type back to me and he wouldn't, nights was so much better laughing and having that internet friend that I needed so bad, just to know that I had someone there to talk to and open my feelings and my heart up to made my days go so great with him it felt like I could face any problem that life threw at me, I felt safe and secured with him didn't have a worry in the world as long as I new that he would be there when I got on the computer was all I ever worried about and he was each time I gave a holler he was there to answer me, and he is the only person I have ever seen that could give me a answer to each of my questions and be right about the answers he gave me, my love for this man was growing each minute that I had with him either on the phone  or on the internet, that love was there at all hours threw out the day, and the next day the same love was there but a little bit stronger than the day before it was starting to scare me I really never had this feeling that I had with this man with any one not even  my husband, the bond was so strong between us, when the end of the second month of talking to him came I felt like a angel and I new at this point in my life that this man was also my angel. Some one I could trust and believe in not only as a friend but as a soul mate as well,  Yes all is true as she is telling I am her trust, her best friend, of all her soul mate for life. Three months ago this change in my life
came by way of faith, belief, and a true feeling that I could make the most wonderful thing happen to this woman by teaching her a different way of looking at herself instead of being withdrawn from a world she had and was so close to all but giving up on I was not going to let this happen, I was going to be that chosen angel in her life, I was by her side in feelings of need and I was her guide to her heart by spirit and by faith to open up and not hide what can hurt you, fear is no where but within    your self  stand in front of it and you have it made, I opened  up a part of her being she had kept shut inside and didn't know how to lift away that hurt not caused by her, but by the lack of care needed and not given when so,
    This meeting between our hearts  and our souls will last forever I am that chosen angel for her in spirit. She attends church and feels spirit of life as she has mine, we did meet in a god sense way and for a purpose that only our hearts and souls know, or I wouldn't have come to know her as I do. He had told me that there is so much more to life  then just getting up and throwing your whole life away, just ask your inter heart and it will give you your answer to anything you ask and I was the one that had taught her that way of thought that she had buried in her self and wouldn't let  go to come out and say this is the real me I have lifted her self esteem up and told her that this is the most  important quality of your life that keeps you from sickness makes you healthy and the most of all happy.
        This is how I was bought up to believe that once this is stripped away from your heart that true sense of your self and spirit just disappears. This must have been my job to do , to keep this from happening from this special person or at least try to stop this because know one should have there self worth put down because someone told you to be that way, that choice is your own and know one else's  and that your guide is your faith in God and the angels that do his work for him, I found this out a long time back with my younger brother we had found out that our father was to sick to bare the weather change and the doctors said it would be best if he moved to the south  were the climate was better suitable for his health. Well unfortunately my father died leaving mom and brother on there own, in my heart I knew I had to be there with them and that's when I became my brothers role model, an angel on his shoulder and today he has a great career and is doing fine I had kept him from going down the wrong road of trouble drugs and everything else in his way growing up, today I have a daughter I raised my self she is a fine mother of three and a angels work always goes on as if its coming from your heart to do so faith will take over as your guide for I feel a special ones cry for answers she cant find she knows my gift to make better as her angel to help her in need to always be there I guess my path threw life will be an angel of faith ,trust and well to help those you truly love to feel the real life in them selves from my gift of word to know you put them special words into someone's  heart that you come to love for that life's a highway and I am her guide, of pure untouched feelings for one another in a way that cant be explained by either of us and to this day we are both in awe, and wonder why this has come about for our two lives meeting each other, There are angels among us what else could it be, we have taught
each other that there is so much in life out there and that there is   a real world that I taught her how to find threw inter heart, I taught her how to find the hole that was in her heart how to fill it up, with  faith and belief in her self and that she could do any thing that she wanted to do by letting her fear go away, and stand up for her self as the true woman I taught her to be,
        As the third month came on, the killers had been caught and the chat room had disappeared as far as we knew, our instant
messages came more frequently soon as the messages weren't enough then came more phone calls, as she started opening
her heart up to me more and more each day I started finding the real truth about who she was and what the real troubles were in her life, that's when I knew I wasn't going to stop until I could really take her away from all this, I am that angel on her shoulder and not just  for her but for her son that she loved so much, they were and are  going to be part of my life for ever, my heart told me that with each passing day and each  day got brighter as she started telling me more about her life and the marriage she was in,  a marriage that know one should be in it made me hurt and more determined to pull her and her son away from that all together, our time on the net started getting better and fun especially  when we drifted into early morning hours, times on the net were good times and bad times, I always seemed to make the bad times she was having go away, every night was different meaning I always had something else different to say to her it was never the same this is how she was learning in her heart, lord above did she ever love it, and so did I for both of us knew that each of  our hearts were intertwining to become one, this was truly one of a kind relationship that was building between us and we both knew that this doesn't just happen to any body we knew there  was a helping hand  it
could only have been the man up above  our angel that has guided us together with his on special path with love, she never wanted to believe that something like this could really happen, as of me I wasn't going to back  away  I knew she was in trouble but at the time I couldn't really get the whole truth from her for she was that scared not knowing what would happen if the other part found out meaning husband I didn't want to play with fire but I chose to do so because I knew this was the right thing to do and she knew that to or she would had let me go in the beginning so this told me she wanted this to, but in her she didn't want to believe the inter heart that she had wouldn't let her go this far so I wrote her a poem and this is the poem, " My angels walk as do my angels talk my angels fly as do my angels cry my angels sing as do that bell I ring, angels don't fall they only rise to keep watch over us with there open eyes yes my angel walks my angel talks my angel flies my angel cries can never close an
angels eyes" I started writing these little things to her it became a habit I was writing quotes, stories, poems the more I wrote the
more she took in because she knew in all I was writing was only the truth she was really starting to believe my word, she was really starting to feel what I taught her as inter heart,
     The forth month starts of us talking about everything that he could give me as well as my son, of making our lives new and for ever change, at this time being so confused in what my life has turned out to be at this time would I do right or wouldn't I , I
didn't really know at this time but he was sure trying to make me believe that it was the right thing to do, but at this time in my
life between him and my husband it was almost like tossing a coin in the air and seeing what way it turn heads or tails, I was closed up at this part in my life and didn't want  to believe in love at all didn't want to believe that someone could really make thischange in me and my son as he wanted to do, do I jump for a better life as he was telling me it would be or do I stay with the man I married and be put threw so much hell that I had went threw for nine years what was the decision that I must take I didn't know, besides telling him I had to take this one day at a time he told me that my heart would let me know when that time was right that it was up to me to do that just listen and open up to what my heart told me and that would be my answer, I started going to church and looking for my answer but seemed like the answer wasn't coming to me in the way I wanted it to, I thought it would have came easy but I learned that life doesn't work that way pray and seek and you will find but at his time he will tell us but we have to be open about all to him as well, this is when we both told each other that we will wait for that answer, we keep up with the phone calls but I was always hiding them because I feared of what would happen to me if I were caught, I knew what would happen but he didn't, this kind of hurt and pain happened to me everyday I just couldn't tell him that, this is what held me back from everything and made me not believe in my self anymore, he seemed to know this but waited for me to tell him taking the kids to the movies out in the cold making phone calls at the pay phone just to get to hear his voice made all worth while, as far as I was concerned it made that much difference in my life to know that he was there to hear  me , he gave me more courage everyday he was teaching me to stand up for my self and be the woman I was never had any body to show me or teach me the way he did and the way he does, Thanksgiving comes around and all though we are so many miles apart we still have it together as if he was right
around the corner by me calling him every time that my husband would leave the house, it was coming that strong between us, if the world only knew how hard this was to me to keep  this a secret between me and him and not for any one else to find out, has to have been one of the hardest things anyone could do in there life but I chose to do it this way and I did it, each day that passed by I knew that my love for this man was getting more and more, when time came for me to go to bed and leave him we always used this special code which was 1 2 3 that way we could leave together but when we got to 3 it was hard for either of us to leave but once we did, we knew that we would be with each other threw out the night we would meet each other in our dreams, Morning came and he was there on my mind, know matter where I was threw out the day he was there with me teaching me guiding me threw out the day,
    Fifth month comes about which is the month of December, my birthday was around the corner which was the tenth and his was the twelfth another thing about us two  that caught our  eye our birthdays, I will never forget it when he told me his was the twelfth, thought at first it was someone playing a joke on me that knew me, well any ways my birthday comes about and I had already sent him a present which was a necklace and a card with a little saying about love, hope, and faith, to me birthdays was just another day before I met him I looked at them as nothing and this was the first birthday that I felt really good about, he had changed my whole day by just saying the little words that he had always said to me from the beginning, someway some how he always could make my days brighter if I was sad, all I had to do was hear and talk to him and by the time we were finished I had forgot about why I was sad or just hurt, so our birthdays pass by, and Christmas is almost here hoping so bad at that time I was there with him spending this special day with him my heart wanted it so bad as did I, it was like the air I breathed was for him, Christmas morning comes and yes we spend it together we had our time with each other and then our time with our families but neither of us weren't happy enough just knowing we had to spend the holidays away from each other but it made us happy just getting to hear each others voices, at this time we are making plans of what we wanted in life, we even had plans of a child which we wanted a girl, and we had picked the name Chrissie Lee out that was going to be our little girls name, and yes we believed this with all of our hearts nothing could change
the way we felt about each other what was there was there, we always had time for each other know matter if it was two o'clock
in the morning we made that time with out each other we were lost I even caught my self so many times wanting to tell my mom about this man that I loved so much, she knew that my marriage was going down hill she seen what all I went threw at home and even her my mom told me so many times why do you  let someone treat you so bad, and my excuse would be mom we have a child by each other, and she would always tell me I know but your happiness you deserve as well I knew this deep down, but I was so scared of my feelings scared to make a move and go on with my life, Christmas wasn't even joyful at home seemed like all went on was fighting and then bed time would come and I can remember going to sleep with tears praying for god to help me answer me show me the way, lead me in the right direction for me and my son, I wanted god to show me on what to do about my life , but seemed like days would go by and I would receive nothing I was giving up on my faith which I shouldn't have done, but every morning  I would wait for my husband to leave and when he did I couldn't wait to either call this man or get on the internet to see where he was I would find him and when I did I was so safe from the world almost like he was holding me in his arms or being a shield that wouldn't let any one bother me, But as I can remember it Christmas night was special we had each other and the love we wanted was there,  Christmas is gone by and the year is coming to an end the year that turned out to be so special to me, our plans together were to celebrate the coming of the new year on line, and know one was going to stop us from doing that  and if you think about it how many people really do that not many of them I am sure, Yes we were and the best way to do that was to take it right from the top and I did just that , it went as perfect as anyone
could imagine 11.59 with 10.sec,s to go right to the strike of midnight we had did it , I could not have made it any better I hollered back at her on line we did it baby we did it , never in my life was I ever so happy to do something knowing that on the other end of that computer line she was just as happy you really can't describe that special moment in someone's life unless you have been there to do it yourself .Have you ever heard that old line try it you'll like it ? Well, we tried it , and we loved it. There is no
better way of bringing in a new year then the way we had done it. I remember I kept telling her that in no way could we be doing this alone we were being helped with and by that big man above our lords angel and that we have been blessed this far and will be forever in our lives together. So the new year is here and now were following it day by day, waking up to her little lines of hope, for that time
to come her wishing to make her life brighter, she told me that if things did not change in her and her child's life that she would be with me in April that's when I knew something was really wrong up there in what I come to call the hell hole she was living in and she so agreed to that as true, it was just that and she wanted out  but she had to keep trying to make it work for the sake of her family and I told her that in 3 strikes he would be out and I would be in and she excepted my word to that she knew I was not going
to back down at any cost and I would be there in waiting . Everything I seem to do weather it be walking the beach, working, eating, playing my music , spending time with my daughter and my grandkids , she was always there in my thoughts and in my heart , my faith and love for this woman I only knew by voice and on line told me that in do time she would be my partner, my companion, my best friend, my love as my wife , all I had to do was let it happen, So here it is the first couple of days into January and my feelings for this man was strong I was confused and going threw a sickness that I had put my self into and lying to him, to make him think I was fine and in good health, but I didn't have the heart
to tell him the truth, so the truth finally comes out and he is very upset about what I had been doing to my self my whole self esteem was gone for my self, and we both make the decision that January the 16 I was flying to Florida to be with him and my son, at that time I say okay but deep in my mind I was scared to what would happen to make that move and what would my son think would he hate me for this I didn't know what to believe at this point but I knew deep down my heart wanted to be with this man, making
the move was the hardest part of all, how would I do it how would I begin, I didn't know, so days pass and my heart is so happy just thinking it would take four hours to meet this man that has helped me in so much and helped me over come my sickness that I had, in everyway he had helped me feel good about my self, So its Wednesday night I go to church and that following Friday I was to meet him in Tampa, but then again something tells me not to make the move just yet , I was setting in church that night and I
wanted a true answer should I or shouldn't I make this move so my heart tells me go home and talk to my husband about all was on my mind so I do so, at that point I am so scared but I make the move to tell him all, so I begin telling him what he was doing to me and our son and that if he didn't change then I was leaving, he promises me nothing but lies but at that point I think he is true about all he is telling me, I wanted to get on line so bad to tell this man that is waiting on me but at that point my husband tells
me I was know longer aloud to get on the  computer any more my heart falls to the floor, I don't know what to do I have to talk to this man that I love so much, so that night I go to sleep crying not knowing what to do, what to tell this man or how I was going to get to tell him, this next day comes and I am made to get on line and do nothing but lie to him but I throw in words that he knows isn't mine and hoping he would catch on to what I was saying, and deep in my heart I know he does, but as soon as I got the
chance to call him I did,  and this man was there waiting for my call, we both are so happy were in tears just to get to hear each other's voice made a big difference in  it all, I tell him I was forced to write what I did by my husband that I didn't want to but he had made me, and he answered back I knew that wasn't your words, January slowly goes by day by day he would tease me, he would tell me that I would be there with him by valentines day I would always reply know way to soon, each night he would tell me
this , its meant to be this will happen I knew in my heart that something had to come out of this but I didn't know what, so my husband never did change didn't keep his promises if anything he got worse with his drugs and his attitude, throwing things at me cursing me staying on to of anything he could find, that s when I knew it was over, my boy and I were going to have a better life with the man I cared so much about and loved me for who I was, and was going to take my son and I under his wings as his own,
everyday seemed to get worse by the minuet, income taxes come and I didn't get any thing from them he took it all and used all of it on drugs and didn't think about me nor my son, seemed like the month of January was going bad I was getting sick again from starving myself losing weight fast, the time comes to were I did eat and I couldn't keep it down how was I to over come this sickness I had, and lying to this man that held the key to my heart was about the hardest thing I could do, here I have someone
miles away from me that loves me and cares for not only me but my son as well and wants us in his life as we were his family, and I wanted that more than anything I wanted my son a better life but this scariness I have for my husband I just couldn't get it out of me scared to talk, or was I wearing the right clothes, was I laughing to loud with my son, always scared of making him mad was enough on me besides trying to find away to be with this man that promised me the moon if he could get it for me, and I knew deep
down that this man wasn't lying of all he would give me and my son I new there was truth in his heart and his word because he had not failed  me yet and I knew he never would, but how was I to make this move that I wanted, at this point I go to talk to my church and they are welling to help me with all they could just to get my son and I out of this home that wasn't good for neither of us they were welling to take that extra step to help me with all they could, at this point I start praying to the lord to show me signs
show me what I must do and I wanted and wanted for those signs, and seemed like one day I woke up and all started hitting me right in the face sign after sign I seen, I seen my husband taking drugs spending all the money we had on his habit he had and I knew that these was the signs that I had prayed so much to see, they hurt to see but all started being played out like a deck of cards it was like a puzzle being put together the answers were there and they were all opening up now right in front of me, and at this point in
my life I know the angels have had a hand in bringing us together knowing that a friendship like ours was simply meant to be, but it was more than a friend to friend thing it was almost like being married to him but looking at it in a way that he was just on a trip and at the end I always new he would be there for my son and I, would always look back over the months we had talked and shared so much of our lives with and I would try to find the words that he said or the poems he wrote me to see or understand what had happen here between us why were we pulled together the way we were, it could only be meant to be we both agreed on this so many times, here we were sharing our nights our days together as if we were arm and arm with each other trying to make each other feel that we were together with each passing minute but sometimes yes it did get old because there were times that we just wanted to hold each other and cry and love each other the way it should be and not by our computer's I remember one night I was wanting to hear his voice so bad and as with him he wanted to hear me as well I couldn't get the chance to call him from home so I make up this big excuse that I needed to go down my moms house at 10:00pm so I do, go to call him were both so happy to hear each others voice but at that moment mom knows something is up, but all alone she always told me she wished I would get out of the mess I was in always trying to get me and my son to come live with her, or get up the courage  to get out at least, it comes to the point to where I tell her about this man she doesn't like the idea or at least she tells me she don't but deep down inside I know she does but for her telling me would come in a way that I don't even know about at this time,
          February comes rolling in and knowing that with all the trouble and pain that she was going threw my time to make my move was there and I wasn't going to turn back I told her it was time to make that choice before her life was really to go down hill and she told me that was fine she had enough hurt and that it was time to leave she said the twelfth would be the day, the reason was that she wanted her son to have his eighth birthday with his grandparents before she would make her dream of that new life come
true. All of a sudden I want to change the date to the twenty second to keep anyone from knowing about it, I talk this over with my church and they had planed to take me to Knoxville airport but I knew my son had the fear of fling so that's when he decides to drive up and get me from Knoxville, which would take time so I had to leave earlier, I choice the sixth, I go to church and talk it over with them and the plans are set as of February sixth to meet him in Knoxville so he had to leave the fifth early that morning and my
son wasn't going to have his birthday in Harlan as of now, this hurt me a little bit but I knew I had to do what I had to do, to make his life as well as mine the best its ever been, and from here on out I knew  our lives would never be the same,  they were going to be better he told me he would be spending valentines day with me and at that point I believed him I was going to spend that day with him, that day was soon approaching up on us and he tells me to wipe out and delete all that was on my computer leave know trail
behind to were my husband could get a hold of anything, and I did my last contact with him on the computer he told me good luck he was on his way he would see me on the morning of the sixth, so that morning comes I have two close friends of mine from church picking me up at my sons school, all I had with me were    two bags and my son his own bag, my son didn't know at the time anything if what was going to be, so my friends come to the school and pick us up to take us to Knoxville to meet this man that
means so much to me , as were driving to  there I call him two times to see where he is,  he tells me he is in a white ford tarsus, so we get to the point were we are to meet at a place called the American steak house as setting in the parking lot I don't think I had ever seen so many white cars in my life but I see one white car turning of into the parking lot and at this point I  know this is him my heart had never felt so happy in so long, as it did when I see him getting out of this car, we switch my bags from one car to the
other and off I am with the man that had talked and had been there for six months of my life and had showed me and my son more love than we had ever had, we stop to
eat at this little dinner when all of a sudden my sons throws one of these tantrums and wants to go home I am stuck not knowing what to do about this, but  Ed talks to him and explains all to him and from there on out all changes things start to look so much
better and our love that we have for each other takes over us it seems like it takes forever for the three of us as my bond with her and the little man I will come to know as my son to reach that new place that we together will call home I catch myself sometimes laughing at what has happen to me for it all came down to faith in thee above because it does work when you want a change in your
life all you have to do is ask and believe and it will come true, it surly has come true for me and I thank you lord for lending me your helping hand.
      As he said we are both happy with our lives and how all turned out to be, he is my heart my friend and someone that I would be lost  to death if I didn't have him in my life now I cant imagine not having him in my life, my son loves him and they get along great which it has took some time for my son to except us as we are but day by day that passes by he sees how happy his mom is and he takes that in, with all the hurt a sadness I had in my life seven months ago I never imagined my life could be filled with so much care as it is now, its amazing how things have worked out a month ago I was ready to give up all I had, give up on life and that meant giving up on my son as well, but I never thought that I would ever find my way out of the dark hole I was in and that's the way I  felt all the time I begged for help or cried out  just for someone to hear me and help me or just be my friend, and then this special man comes into my life and helps me and my son escape the pain and sadness that we both had and takes us in as his
own and loves us just as much as he does any one else, a big step he took as taking us both on and being a father to my son that really never had a father to do things with him and even share his thoughts with, well now he has that and every time I see them together and sharing what there day has been, it brings a tear to my eye just to see my son finally have that man in his life and not just mom, I thank the lord as well as he does for all he has done and all the angels that helped us both not give up of something we
believed would happen as it did,
       So here it is March and were together and still happy as we could ever imagine taking life as its gave to us, our love only grows with each passing day, and for us were trying to have our little Chrissie as we had talked about months ago, I would have never believed life could be as it is today, the darkness that I once had is gone and the sun shines brighter for my son and I as well as the man I love, he took me away and gave me something far beyond just being happy he gave me life again, took away all the hurt I had
in me, he is always by my side and I know if I am feeling down he will always say those special words to me as he always have, my parents are happy of the move I have made for me and my son they know I am happy and know that I did right by making the move I did, sure I am miles away from them but they know as well as I do that I am there by love and spirit and I haven't gone a day without calling them, but as for me and my son were both happy and we feel the love that is given to us, if I hadn't made the
change I did today I wouldn't know were I would be or what would be going on in my life today, it took me a while to get use to the  fact of someone loving me as I do them because I was always given the love and never receiving it back but now I give it and receive it, for so long I was scared of the word love but this man showed me that everyone isn't mean and cruel that there are people out there that care and can give you the love that you need and that's exactly what he done all the years I spent in hell sometimes I wonder was it meant to be that way, because at one time in my life I thought all people were good, but from this I not only found out that people do care I learnt that what ever happens in life there are ways out, and that there is an angel out there that can help you and that's just what I found, I will always believe that this man was sent to me by god and the angels in heaven helped us both out, and showed us what we had to do, we had that faith and never gave up in what we wanted and all our dreams we
talked about and all the words we spoke to each other  are planned in our hearts like a plant that grows beside the waters they never die because they always have what they need and now I can say I have all I will ever need in love, caring, faith, a campaign  I know that this man will never lead me wrong and watch over my son and I, for all the days we talked and so many hours we spent talking, all the laughing and crying we did together I thank god for each and everyone of them, I've heard so many people say we get
trouble and trials to learn from them and I use to think how can you learn from your mistakes, but now I look back at those words and I do believe them we do learn from them nothing never happiness with out a cause and this is what had happen here god sent me this man and I learned so much from him that life is just more than waking up and doing the same routine everyday get out and explore the world, live life as its your last day here on earth and love what you have not because you have it but because you were
given a chance at it, and ever who said there not angels out there I don't believe that because they are, my angel talks to me sleeps with me, walks by my side and never leaves me alone, and to this I call him my husband that we will soon be come June the fifteenth on fathers day as well as his daughters birthday for my love only grows stronger for him and he is the best father to my son and soon will have a child that was made from the both of us, I look at life in a different way now when morning comes and he is
laying along beside me its like he is my strength to go on with each passing day he gives me hope to go on and makes me happy for what I done, he is my sunshine my rainbow with each word that we speak to each other only makes our life brighter, six months ago I would have never thought that my life as well as my sons life would have came to a change as it is today but all is for the better even though I lost two sisters of doing what I had to do doesn't change a thing about the way I feel for this man, so don't
never say never and never think that you can never escape a abusive life or marriage because you can I did and was so sacred but once I left that house I was so relieved and I left my pain behind sure I still think back to what my life was for nine years, but I have to over come that and start out a new life
to make my son happy as well, and to all of this I thank the angels that helped me over come the scariness I had within my self and thank them for the new life me and my son has now it could never be better each morning of my life now is different I don't have to worry about waking up and knowing how my day is going to be, I know now each day will be as bright as the sun that shines down on the waters, for all this my angels still stand with me guides me to were I need to be and gives me the joy that I need for
each passing day, I opened my ears up my heart up and I was given a whole new life for my son and I  we do have a new life, I will always  know that it was meant to be this way and love the man that my angels help me get to for caring and his loving thoughts that he always gave me, and love me for who I am. Our love was patient, it was and still is kind, it don't envy it wasn't proud, it wasn't   rude, it wasn't self seeking, it wasn't easily angered, it kelp no records of anger, it keep no record wrong. The
love we had didn't delight in evil but rejoiced with the truth, it always protected us, they were always trust, always hope. Always persevered, love never failed neither of us, and now these three remain of us faith, hope and love, but the greatest of all of these we had and still does do have is love, and this is how a loving couple should treat each other love is the main thing that all couples should have and that's what we do have for each other is love, nothing nor know one can take that away from us, for all the trouble and all the pain that we both have had in these seven months I think we deserve all the happiness we can get, and all the love we also can get , each day that passes by we always think our angels for all the work and all the days that they helped us over come,  have truly done there work for us. Having almost traveled twelve hundred miles to make both of our dreams really come true and to take away any doubts in anyone's minds that something so magical could ever happen to her or I or anyone for that
matter is the gift of a life time that we both wish everyone had at least one time to experience but to challenge the odds and win is what its a about and when you do win its only with that special help that extra something , that we both tried to figure out but at the end we see our lives as one and what ever comes we together will fix all the trouble that life throws at us, we will work as we have from the beginning and like we have since I have been with him, sure life throws problems at us all  but the thing to do is talk things out and work as if we have a life time, but of all we love each other more everyday we share our thoughts with each other and our problems are worked out together not as one but as a couple that we are and will be, only more good can come out of this fascinating relationship which it can only be, god grants these special relationships far and few between I guess we must be one of the few that's out there what a honor to be blessed with this event, miracles do happen to those who believe but with that you have to have also faith  ,hope, and surly lots of love, or nothing like this could have never happened, its amazing what computers can do, bring two people together as it has us can only be faith we believed it then and we believe it now, to make things work as they have is another thing to have it happen is another thing but out of all of this we have each other my son and the baby that we will have, the man I will soon marry the blessings that my parents have gave to this man, for taking me and my son from what he did he
has all of there love, my family has took him in as one of there own, for now things look great just as planned for us and our family soon to be, for his family also took me and my son on as we were always in there family they show all there love to us both, and for me being a mother and a grandmother to his daughter  and his grand children, and for him being a father to mine has only made things in our lives that much more special, my son now has a sister that he never thought he would have and looks up to her as if
she was his big sister all along, for so many hills that I had climbed threw out my life and never seem to reach the top with out trouble, he knocked down those hills to were I could see what lied on the other side he opened all that was in me that was there for so long but never could find its way out, all the bad things are gone and filled with happiness I now look at life as a gift and not another day, the air I breath is so much better, I don't see those mountains anymore I see flat land and sunny beaches, the air
is clear the sun so bright, the sunset is so beautiful, but of all of this there is love that I long for so long and never could get, at one time I didn't think I would ever find that love that I longed for so long, but all the words we spoke and all the wonderful days we spent on the computer we will never forget about we hold them so dear and close to our hearts, that's why we wish to share this festinating and true story of real faith of real hope of real love, that we share as one, that others we hope will read with reason and
understanding anything can happen in life if you out your heart to it and this is how it all came a bought if it wasn't for a story that we both chose to look into, of all things a chat line, my name was hope angel eyes his name was Sunday rain and those names we can never forget, but with each passing day that we talked we read our horoscope and they came out as we were living our lives day by day, he taught me how to read the stars and the way I taught her was to show her that the inter heart of our souls revolves
around those stars there your everyday way of living and that there's nothing false about them this goes back to the beginning of time its self when all they had were the stars in the heavens to make there day go by, they studied them they watch them , in a way the stars told each of us how to live right not wrong in this world we call earth. If you look at the blind side of your self and ask where's everyone well when times get rough and it seems your life feels hopeless and yet you pick yourself up and put the
pieces back together yet your still alone in the dark because your star isn't shining , you just want to scream out but there's no one there to hear you or listen and then you say to yourself can I walk that extra mile will I find what im looking for, can I find that road that everyone wishes to travel down, maybe so maybe not that choice in your life has to be yours and no one else'sfor you want all the goods inside to be right at your feet well that won't happen as easy as said if it were that way this world surly would have ended a long time ago. For Gracie and Ed we both knew the risk we both knew the truth that would come out of all of this, but for the best of all reason's we took on that challenge weather it was wrong but in our lords eyes it was right and we both knew it in our hearts to make it and let it happen yes we will have our hard times , but we will have our good times and many of them more to come only because we come to believe in each others hearts souls and minds and that it only came by way of our feelings
and the true answers to both
       Our angels answers.
 

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